Feeling just a bit better

Thank you so much for praying. It has been a real struggle to be REALLY sick (both husband and I) for 4 of the first 6 days our new children have been home. I told Jeff that if we could survive this while sick, then surely we can survive it (and even thrive) when we are well! LOL!

As I was contemplating how I would respond to the constant eye-rolling, whining, sagging-shouldered "aw, but mommee!" sounds of my un-parented, steeped in tween-culture, attempts to manipulate me of my new 9 and 12 year old daughters today. . . (way too long of a sentence, but it continues), I found myself thinking how totally spoiled they were and how all of their responses are totally dependent on them getting what they think they deserve: if they get it they are happy - if they don't, they are whining and pouting.

AND THEN IT HIT ME!

I have been whining and complaining to God (and a few select friends) that I am sick right now and how unfair it is and how it would be easier if I was not sick because, after all, I had plans for this first week and this is making MY life harder and that really God should give me what I want because I think it is best . . .

Oh. . .

Ah, yes, I just love how adoption has opened up my eyes to all of the ways that I respond like a spoiled orphan when I am not believing and living in the reality of the fact that I am an ADOPTED daughter of THE benevolent King of the Universe! He really does love me and really does have a GOOD purpose and plan for my life. No discipline seems good at the time but in the end it reaps a harvest of righteousness. Ultimately, it is not about "me" anyways. It is about Him being glorified. IF I really believe that He is good AND that He is sovereign, then I can fully trust him with EVERYTHING (even being sick right now) and. . . probably, I shouldn't whine about it!? LOL!

So, praising God for all of the good things that are coming from this sickness and doing just what I tell my children to do: "put your shoulders back, put a smile on your face, and with joy in your heart say 'yes, mommy.' Good job!"

"Yes, Daddy!" :)